Dad,
I guess I am going through these stages of grief that everyone talks about. Everyone is telling me that its normal to be pissed off. Good thing its normal cause I am mad at you. I am angry that you left without saying goodbye. I am mad that you left all of your stuff for us to go through. I am livid that I cant pick up the phone like husband can and just talk to you. I am particularly pissed off that you left in general. I wasn't ready for you to go. I really wasn't ready for all those adult things I had to do like paying for a cremation and writing my own dad's obituary. I am mad that I all I can do right now is cry. Husband sure isn't getting the attention he needs and now I am mad at him. He has a dad and I don't. I am pissed.....and now I am crying. I am upset that I have to see YOUR name on a death certificate. I am angry that all I can see of you is pictures. I miss your laugh. I miss your advice. I miss you.
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