Today I made it to the grocery store.....quite a venture for me since I havent wanted to leave my cone of silence. I just about had a breakdown in the middle of the bread isle because I saw the kind of bread you used to buy. It is really stupid little things that are setting me off the past few days. Chris said I have to just get used to crying everyday for the time being, cause it is going to happen.
I have invited Jim to write you some notes. I worry about him. I hope this helps. I know we both are struggling with the fact that you are really REALLY gone. Somedays I think you are just on vacation or out of town for work.....and then reality hits me. That image of you in the hospital. Then I just have to open my eyes, pet a kitty and think of this.....
I feel better for a while. I am not sure if this will ever seem real. I know I will carry the lessons you taught me about tolerance and generosity and life in general with me always. Its just hard to think you are really gone.
Ang
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