I know you always told me to live my life to the fullest and never regret anything. Today I guess I am feeling lonely without you here. Mostly sad because you aren't just a phone call away anymore. I cant even tell you how many times I have picked up my cell phone to call and tell you something. The first try was a good one. Chris and I were up at Moran Eye Center looking more into his surgery. I just happened to ask where they take donated corneas. They told me right down to the second floor of the building we were in. I wanted so bad to call you and tell you what good would be coming for people who needed your donated parts. I wanted to call and tell you about how many people came to your memorial service and how many people just stayed. Dad, that room was so full of love it overflowed into the hall and other rooms. It was amazing. I am just sad I dont have you here anymore to talk to. You always were caring but stern with your words and that might be what I need to help me get out of my funk. Dad, I dont even want to get my crafts out. I am really struggling with the whys and the what I could have done crap. I hope you are so very happy and healthy where ever you might be now. I am sure my broken heart will be repaired and I will still keep all the wonderful memories of your laugh in my heart.
I miss you,
Ang
PS Here is my favorite pic of you and Jim laughing.....
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